Monday, November 9, 2009

Providence and other thoughts...

I really need to get a little better about this whole blogging thing! You wouldn't believe how many times I start thinking about something and say to myself "I should blog about this!"...and look where that gets me, considering my last post was in August!

A lot has happened since then; in fact, within a couple of days of that post, our life got a little flipped upside down! Jim also worked for CSS, but in a different section of it. With the new company starting, the 2 sections were kind of splitting and gradually are becoming 2 completely separate entities. We had a lot of late night discussions those last few days in August, but we finally both came to the agreement that Jim wasn't supposed to stay with the bakery. We were back and forth with it a lot, as he didn't have any job prospects on the horizon, but God used a specific incident for us to say, 'OK, this is it, time to look for a new job'. It was hard: hard on him because he had grown to love his job there; hard on me because there was a lot of tension in the company already; hard on us because this meant we were down to living on one income for who knew how long.

Jim was able to meet with a good friend, Russell Darnell, who had been through this same experience about 1 year prior. His insight was beyond valuable, and really helped Jim learn how to use the time to grow and learn some more about himself. The first month wasn't too bad, financially speaking, as we had his last paycheck from CSS and were able to bank some of his unemployment for the following month. He got into a good routine and was kind of enjoying being able to help out family and friends, exercise, and read. After about 3 weeks, it started getting a little harder on him. He had no prospects for a job, and everything was telling him he would have to go back to school to get the job he wanted. He didn't want to go get just "a job" as we have started talking about starting a family and didn't want to go through this again in a few months, when he needed more income. I know it was a huge growing experience for him during this time, as he had to depend on God completely, not knowing when or where this job would come into play; as a man that is extremely difficult! We had a lot of open conversations about how we both were feeling (more from my side later on); he did have a hard time knowing the pressure of paying the bills all fell on me, and his hands were kind of tied.

Praise the Lord, however, He provided work in so many different ways. Jim was able to remodel his sister's nursery for her soon-to-be born daughter, he did a lot of renovations for our dear friends the Deals, and had quite a few cake orders! Between that, his very measly-sized unemployment checks (there was a little bit of a weird situation resulting in his getting only about 30% of his previous income), and a little bit of downsizing and being creative in our budget, along with some generous gifts God graciously provided through friends...we made it! Not only did we make it, but we still have our emergency fund intact: how crazy is that?! Jim has now started a job with the Lynchburg League of Therapists; to say he loves it so far is an understatement...I have never seen him so excited to go into work!! Even from the financial end, this job provides us with the realistic prospect of starting a family where I can be at home most of the time.

We both learned a lot about dependence during that time...which, if you know me, is a huge deal, because I am very independent! I'll have another post soon hopefully about my perspective during this whole season; I just wanted to share a little of what we went through, and give glory to God for His provision. We always hear of people's stories of provision, but it's such an amazing thing when you experience it for yourself. As an example, we had some friends who were also struggling financially (due to circumstances, not because of a lack of frugality), and we really felt that we were to help them out. I'm not usually the one to say 'yes! let's give away money!', but it was something Jim and I agreed upon, and was honestly something that we had to completely depend on the Lord for, as it wasn't extra money that we had. (I say this to say, I'm not bragging, because of my own will, this would not have happened)

That same evening, we were given a gift of DOUBLE the amount we had just given away. If that doesn't humble you, I don't know what will. I still tear up thinking about it, as I tend to doubt God so much in even the small things in life, yet He has never not provided for not only our basic needs, but we live a very comfortable life! Shame on me for my lack of faith, but praise to God that He provides all the faith I need, exactly when I need it!

Friday, August 28, 2009

Realizations

If you follow my blog at all, you'll notice I haven't updated very much...I attribute that to the fact that I am not just busy, but so much so that's it's unhealthy, and that needs to change.

A lot has been going on in my life, and Jim's (i.e. OURS); lots of emotional ups and downs, financial ups and downs...just one big rollercoaster. And if you know me at all, I'm not one for emotional craziness, so it's been all the more taxing for that reason alone. 

My job has become my life, and I hate...no ABHORE that fact. Because the company has been so unstable, it's required a lot of crazy scheduling and hours to make it float. However, I've let it require that of me. We were talking last night in small group about things we struggle with (per James 4)...the desires that can so easily take over. One of my major ones is control. If I don't think something will get done the right way, I'd rather do it myself to ensure that it is done properly, and in doing so, waste my life away doing it.

With all the drama and instability that has been going on, it was very difficult for me to feel comfortable giving anything over to anyone else to do. Part of it is because I am overloaded with work, but part of it is my own doing.

I'm in a weird phase of life where I really want a career, but I also kind of just want to work P/T and be able to really take care of our house and just enjoy life! Jim made a good point-I should probably get my career stuff going now, because if I don't, knowing me, I'll probably wonder "what if" at some point later. Not that I wouldn't be content, but that's something I definitely struggle with.

I'm kind of just righting my stream of consciousness, so this may just be blabber, but it's good to write it out. The company is closing and the new one starting on Tuesday. I'm excited for it, but also hesitant...I want it to do really well; what I don't know is where my role is in that. Until I figure it out, I will continue doing my job, doing my best-but doing it moderately! For someone who is such a proponent of moderation, I've been doing a pretty sucky job at it when it comes to work vs. home life. It will be interesting as well, as Jim is not continuing with the company and is again looking for work. It's a bit of a struggle sometimes to feel that I have to work to support us; I'm not bitter about that fact, just struggle with the weight of it sometimes I guess, especially when I feel I'm the only girl among my friends who is in that position.

All of this to say-who knows where this is leading. God has it all worked out already, I just have to follow His leading and trust His sovereignty, which is extremely comforting. That's why I haven't freaked out about it all I think-I know we'll be provided for no matter what. For the time being, I'll be doing the very best job I can...but within a schedule and hours that allow me to prioritize my family and my life far above anything at the office.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

I'm not exactly a hippie...Part 2

This kind of lifestyle is definitely easier said than done. The cultural norm in America is that we stay busy ALL the time (I need to work on lessening that myself!), so our eating habits, cleaning habits and exercise habits need to fit into that lifestyle. However, most good things don't come at the snap of a finger-they take time! Think about it-would you prefer a McDonald's hamburger, or a slow-cooked fillet Mignon (providing you like beef)? Pretty sure the fillet-it takes longer, but it's worth it! Same goes for our health. So maybe you have to actually prepare a dinner from scratch rather than heat up some pre-prepared frozen food item. Maybe we have to spend a little more money to get non-pesticide covered food rather than the cheap genetically enhanced food that doesn't even look natural. It's worth it-not only for our health now, but for our future health as well!

I look at both my and Jim's family, and while our great-grandparents lived to be quite old and most of our grandparents are still living, there are a lot of other health/body issues in both families on both sides! High blood pressure, heart problems, diabetes, cancer, Autism, over-weight, depression...the list goes on. I don't think ALL of it could be prevented through diet, but a lot of it could be helped that way. The same goes for medication-I think that it can be a good thing, obviously God has given doctors/researchers the brains to develop treatments for things, but sometimes those are developed out of the same "quick fix" mentality, not caring so much about the possible side effects. I mean, the drug commercials anymore consist of 45 seconds of listing possible side effects and 15 of advertising the actual medication! Then, you have to get on more medication for the side effects of the other medicine you are on...and so on.

I've seen the results of living a healthier, natural lifestyle in our own home. When we were first married, I was on birth control, but began having a ton of health problems. I had eye problems and couldn't wear contacts for 6 months, horrible pain in my ovaries, headaches, random swelling in my joints, and traveling blood clots. (not saying it's wrong-I just am not a fan now of putting added hormones unnecessarily into my body.) The doctors kept trying to switch the birth control, but the side effects would just start over again after about a month. So, we decided I would just stop taking it. Surprisingly (or maybe not), the side effects slowly lessened, then stopped! Blood clots dissipated, swelling went down, eye sight cleared up...it was great! Now, that does mean we have to be a little more "careful", since we're not wanting to get pregnant yet...and yes, that can be inconvenient. But, to me, the health risks aren't worth the convenience.

Shortly thereafter, I started getting rid of buying food with preservatives in it, and have gradually gone to using as much "whole" and natural food as possible. It's been a challenge, as Jim's not always as big a fan of the different tastes and textures, but he's actually learned that he likes a lot of the food and will choose it now on his own! The health benefits have been awesome-Jim's been sick only once-MAYBE twice-in the past 2 years or so (he does still eat quite a bit of processed sugar...we're working on that one. ;) ), and I haven't been actually SICK at all! Maybe a little worn down from working too much or traveling, but no colds, flu, sinus infections...nada. We also go to the chiropractor 2x/month, which I think contributes as well. It's amazing how much you can save on dr. bills...when you look at it that way, the little bit of extra money for food isn't bad at all!

I'm not exactly a hippie...Part 1

But I do tend towards the "earthy" things. It's something that tends to cause occasional disruption on the homefront, as buying natural products tends to be a little more costly. It's not always, however, as one can score some great coupons and find good sales if looking hard enough. Plus, during the summer, growing your own veggies and/or buying them locally at the market actually saves a ton of money!

I'm not totally organic...there are some things that can be all-natural without being organic and still OK. However, I'm among the group of thought that if it's not something that is of natural origin, I don't think my body was meant to process it. That not only goes for food, but even for body care products, laundry detergent and the like. Thus the cause of a 15 minute debate at the grocery store over laundry detergent today. The ALL "free and clear" was on sale for $5/box, which did 40 loads of laundry. The BioKleen cost $18/box, but did 100 loads. So, we could buy 3 boxes of the ALL that would do about the same amount as the one box of BioKleen, but it would be still cheaper. Do we go with the cheaper, or the all-natural: thus our debate. We ended up with my first instinct: the BioKleen. Why? I mean, the the ALL was phosphate-free, plus free of dyes and perfumes, so that's all good. But, when looking at the ingredients, the first thing listed was "various cleaning agents". In the words of the SNL McGruber "What does that even mean?!"

If a national, well-known company is selling detergent, you know their main goal is to make a profit. So when it says "various cleaning agents", that does not make me feel very comfortable. There should be no reason they don't list every ingredient in their product. More than likely, it has sulfates and aluminum in it-neither of which are great for absorbing into your body. I may sound a bit extreme, but I'm convinced that a lot of the reason that people are so frequently sick, getting diseases and disorders (such as cancer, Autism, high blood pressure...) is because of our American "quick and easy" lifestyle. Let me clarify: I am NOT saying that all of these things are caused this way-sometimes they just happen because we live in a fallen world. However, I think a lot of things could be prevented if we take a step back and re-evaluate the "normal" way of life.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Slacking...

So, um...it's been over a month since my last blog. Oops. The funny thing about blogging is, once you start, you really can't stop. Sure, I may have a dry spell here and there, and then a "mountain top" (for you who grew up Baptist) blogging experience where I can't get enough...but regardless, I can't leave it. It beckons. I feel semi-guilty if I don't blog, which is funny, because I'm sure only about 2.3 people ever really read it!

I may post some more serious things in the next couple days, but I think I'll catch you up on some random happenings in my life first:

-we have a new refrigerator. Ours officially went kaput, and thank God for Dave Ramsey, as we had more than enough saved to get a new one. Granted, the Lowe's saleswoman made me want to slap her, but they had the best price, so in the end they one. I never thought the sound of an icemaker would be so comforting...
-my love affair with J. Crew has deepened. Not only did they have a sale again and I got some great stuff, but I actually tried to shop for things elsewhere (other than Ann Taylor) and failed miserably. I just wanted denim shorts, that's all. After about 2 hours of trying on everything I could find, I finally found one pair at New York and Company. It was buy one get one free, so I think "Great! I'll get a pair in a different color!" But nooooo...the same shorts in a different color of course fit entirely differently. So I settled for a free tank top, which I will probably return. J. Crew, I return to you, having learned my lesson.
-my husband is obsessed with Star Trek. I never knew quite how much until we started NetFlix. However, it works, because I like my downtime, and now he has something he likes to do as well. :)
-I don't like humidity. It has been pretty disgusting for the past couple of weeks, and it makes me actually want to stay inside, which is pure insanity for me. Thankfully, the evenings have been cooler, so I've been able to get out then. My exercise routine is severely lacking, however...I need to get on that!
-Me + the beach need to have a date ASAP. I am so in need of some rest and waves...just me and Jim would be great. Maybe we'll do that for our anniversary...
-I accomplished another of my bucket list goals: Learn to play the guitar. Jim taught me some basic chords, and I very slowly (and very badly) played a couple of songs, but hey, it counts!
-I actually, for a few brief moments, considered moving from Lynchburg...I may blog more about that later...
-Another one of my "unofficial, but should be official" items on my bucket list was accomplished: meeting Danny and Zack (and Pepe and Monica) from K92. Went to the Pancake Breakfast, got some pics, hung out and talked, and met up with them at Friday Cheers! we may be BFFs...speaking of Friday Cheers...
-best. thing. ever. Seriously. It's all the locals, dancing, having a great time, and is some of the best people watching ever. Like Cattle Annie's on crack. There's the American flag man in the tight black jeans, who has his own little dance party every time. There's the big hairy man with the gut who you can measure how drunk he is by how far his shirt is unbuttoned, and how much he hits on women with mullets. Then there's "Rocky"...he's my favorite so far.
-I got Jim to watch Anne of Green Gables and Anne of Avonlea. I forgot how much I ADORE those movies. We used to watch them all the time growing up...rainy Saturday? Anne. Sick in bed? Anne. I wanted to be her...to be so careless and outspoken and free. And to marry Gil, because he's just the best. And because I'm like Anne, and it would take me 5 years to realize he was the right guy for me!
-I have discovered flax seed, and put it in as much food as possible. Jim, when having an upset stomach tonight (it tends to um...make you more regular, shall we say), blamed it on flax...although I hadn't actually put any in his food today, lol.

All in all...it's been a busy, hectic, yet fun past few weeks. Jim was finally able to "officially" graduate, funny robe and all-I'm so proud of him! Work has been...well, work. Kelly's back at the office, which is nice, more pleasant to be there now. Back and forth and a little frustrating as always, but it's getting better.

I feel like that was a decent post, if I do say so myself! More to come...sometime. ;)

Monday, May 11, 2009

Why I love my friends

I plan on posting some pics soon, but I just have to say I have the best friends and hubby ever!! They worked together to surprise me for my birthday by having a surprise girls' weekend (well, almost surprise! ;) ) Emily came down from MD and Gini came up from NC; Kerra was unable to come but helped plan the whole thing, and I found out basically everyone in my life knew about it but me! We had a great time, good memories were made for sure! No matter where life takes all of us, we will always have our girls' weekends, and for that I am truly thankful! (Especially with the help of Emily's fancy calendars!) Love you ladies!

Friday, April 24, 2009

FedEx


Can I just say how thankful I am for them? Not only because they ship packages with great care, ;) but the guys there have absolutely amazing. Not only do they do everything possible to help my consumers succeed, but have become very dear friends to me and I know they've got my back. That means a lot. So, even though I don't think any of them read this: Thanks guys. You rock.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Life

I really need to keep up with this more...so, rather than my usual blog about something specific, I'm just going to blog about life in general-saves time. :)

We got to go visit my parents in Iowa last month and had a great time. I got to see the house they are building and the plans they are making for it, help them out with that, and spend some quality time with my brother and sister as well. I really miss my family; it's a weird dynamic. I love VA and don't ever really want to move (unless it's to Italy of course, or maybe the Carolinas) so I am coming to the realization we may always be far away. But who knows...when we have kids that all could change.

We started a new small group and I am really enjoying it so far. Our old one I love, but it was getting so big, and a lot of the people had kids and we are in two very different stages in life. The new small group, while having a couple of kids in it, consists of those of us in similar life stages, so I feel I can relate a little easier in conversation and be more open, which I like. One of the couples just had their offer accepted on a house 2 blocks from us, so I'm excited to be close to some more friends!

Work has been...well, hellish. Jim almost got laid off; thankfully I found some more hours for him. He is considering looking for another job, which I don't blame him for in the least. I know he's the "low man on the totem pole"; but I feel like he's been jerked around way too much because of that, and it's always done without goign through me first, which is strange, since I'm his supervisor.

That has been one of the most frustrating things for me lately...decisions keep being made that directly affect me and the job coaches I supervise, but I am not involved in any of those decisions, just informed after the fact. I can't really do my job when I'm not involved in how things are run. There are also some things going on that I don't ethically agree with, if I'm going to be blunt. I've expressed my views on these things and have taken my hands out of it. It is honestly not a result of the economy, but of poor financial planning and investments, and now it's coming back to bite people and they are trying to save their asses. It's frustrating to have to be caught up in that, especially when a lot of it could have been avoided in the first place. But then again...what can I say? I don't own the company, so I guess my opinion isn't worth that much. (sarcasm noted) Not to say it's completely a result of lack of financial planning...there are some things out of their hands that have impacted things; I just don't think it would have been such a drastic effect if things were handled better leading up to now.

Let's see...what else? My birthday was yesterday, and I loved it. Had the day off, spent it walking, reading, gardening and just being relaxed! Had dinner and dessert with a few friends, and am having a cocktail party this weekend which I am really excited for! Jim has something planned for Friday night that he won't tell me about...although I have an idea of what it is. I could be wrong, but things are pointing to that, and I think I'm on to him (and a few other people). We shall see...

I just finished reading the book "The Unlikely Disciple" and would higly recommend it. I may write another blog post about that sometime-very itneresting seeing an "outsiders" perspectives on LU. Funny thing is, most of the things that he has issues with are the same things I have issues with (as far as how they handle certain things, some rules, etc). The difference is that I have found that the truth isn't what LU is doing in those situations-shocker: much of what they do is NOT Biblical-but that the Bible, when read and studied thoroughly, is truth. And that truth would probably get you kicked out of LU, or at least fined some serious reps. :)

Anywho...I think I'm going to head home for some lunch. I've been organizing my files and the office, which is taking a lot of time...not a bad thing, kind of relaxing since I'm a little type A about things being organized...:)

Peace.

Friday, April 3, 2009

Bucket List


I've had one of these for a while, but decided to follow the crowd and post mine here as well. I'm sure I'll be adding to it, and I've accomplished at least one of them so far! :)



1. Become a certified interpreter. (check!)

2. Live in Italy for a year.

3. Skydive-(Gini Matz, we should do this together)

4. Run a marathon

5. Teach dance (again)

6. Meet John Mayer (I'm awful, I know)

7. Be on the Today Show, as a guest

8. Write a book

9. Travel Europe

10. Be debt-free and self insured. (i.e.-have enough in mutual funds I don't need insurance!)

11. Have a job, just once, where they send me on fun business trips.

12. Have a large vegetable garden.

13. Adopt or foster a child with special needs.

14. Drive a 1966 Shelby Cobra.


.....so far that's what I have. I know there's more. I'll just have to add to it!

Friday, March 20, 2009

I'm 23...really?

Why again am I trying to run a company? Someone remind me. Please. Because today, I'm about ready to say screw it. I'm working at Starbucks.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

The Happiest Place on Earth is Not Disney World...

...it's at a dance for people with disabilities. No lie-this should be on everyone's bucket list.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Friends

I need to go unpack and clean a little, so this will be short. I just wanted to say I love my friends. I just got back from girls' weekend, and thoroughly enjoyed myself, as usual. Katie and I were talking on the way home about just how different we all are, and our little personality quirks, but we all somehow just click. Even when we don't agree, or think someone is being stupid, ultimately we have each other's backs and would be there in a heartbeat, no matter what. And for that, I am forever grateful. I am incredibly blessed to have such wonderful, beautiful, fun women in my life and don't ever want to take that for granted! Pictures to come soon...once I can steal them from Gini since I forgot my camera!

Peace.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

T-Shirts

I've had a few conversations lately with a variety of people, all centering around the same topic: Christianity. If you know me very long at all, you will come to find out that I can't stand the way that 'Christian' has become a term that doesn't define who one is, but IS defined by a certain Americanized stereotype-a stereotype that, sadly, is usually not far from the truth.

While I learned a lot growing up and many of my experiences have shaped the way I view things now, there were many things that churches I attended and Christians I looked up to took part in that, looking back, were as far from 'Christian' as I want to be. Things like getting into theological debates with people on the streets of Chicago because we were 'practicing witnessing' while at a summer camp, or standing on a bridge holding signs saying things like 'Abortion is Murder'. When I think about how those people must have responded-how I would have responded-in those situations, it basically comes down to "Screw you."

I'm not saying that I don't stand up for my beliefs, or share those with others, but I think there is a right and wrong way to go about it, and the previously mentioned tactics would go under the 'wrong' category. Jesus Himself spent lots of time with those He ministered to, getting to know them and where they were in life, practically SHOWING the message He was preaching. I think meeting someone's need, such as bringing them food when their husband was laid off, shows Christ's love, rather than saying, "You're a sinner, you need Jesus." Yes, they need Jesus, but right then, they need food.

It's like if I knew a friend was looking for a dining room table (OK, this is on a MUCH smaller scale, but go with it), and I found a great deal on one that was great quality I knew they would like. I would share with them what I had found because I knew from my own experience how it could meet their need, not because they were a random person on the street and I said "Hey, there's a table inside, it's cheap, you should buy it right now!" Same thing with the gospel. If I share it with you, I want it to be because of the impact it's had on my life, and I can see how it's going to truly impact yours, not because I think I'm right and you're wrong.

All of that can be summed up in this one amazing song by Derek Webb. If you don't know him, you should look him up: he's satirical, ironic, sarcastic, but most of all....honest. Enjoy.

T-Shirts
they'll know us by the t-shirts that we wear
they'll know us by the way we point and stare
at anyone whose sin looks worse than ours
who cannot hide the scars of this curse that we all bare

they’ll know us by our picket lines and signs
they’ll know us by the pride we hide behind
like anyone on earth is living right
and isn’t that why Jesus died
not to make us think we’re right

chorus
when love, love, love
is what we should be known for
love, love, love
it’s the how and it’s the why
we live and breathe and we die

they’ll know us by reasons we divide
and how we can’t seem to unify
because we’ve gotta sing songs a certain style
or we’ll walk right down that aisle
and just leave ‘em all behind

they’ll know us by the billboards that we make
just turning God’s words to cheap clich├ęs
says “what part of murder don’t you understand?”
but we hate our fellow man
and point a finger at his grave

chorus
they'll know us by the t-shirts that we wear
they'll know us by the way we point and stare
telling ‘em their sins are worse than ours
thinking we can hide our scars '
beneath these t-shirts that we wear

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Spontaneity

I am not one for Valentine's Day. Maybe I'm cynical, but I find it so cliche. At least for right now. I think when I have kids it will be a lot of fun, but I prefer randomness and total surprises verses a planned day that everyone else also has planned to celebrate, and that feeds off consumers so that every price is jacked up.

Because of this, I asked Jim not to do anything for me on Valentine's day, but to just randomly do something some other time. Last week we were at Whole Foods and found some Hydrangea for $4, which is my favorite flower, so we got that, and it is still blooming away in my kitchen, so I'm happy. :) I say all of this to preface the fact that I was just expecting a non-exciting Saturday, possibly working around the house, nothing big.

Jim, however, woke up and actually suggested we go check out books from the library and then go sit OUTSIDE at the park and read them-he thought it sounded fun. If you know me, you know I LOVE to read, and am slightly obsessed with being outside. And if you know Jim, you know that he would much prefer to be inside, probably working on the house. So, I took full advantage of this opportunity. We went to the library, then stopped at the J. Crew sale (which I'm also obsessed with) then on to the park. We read until it got chilly, then he suggested going to Dicken's bookstore for coffee...another 2 of my favorite things. Then, he decided to make a completely random drive to Roanoke to eat at Red Robin, because he wanted their ranch and fries! Again, COMPLETELY out of the ordinary for Jim! So...on to Roanoke we went, grabbed dinner, and drove back to meet Matt and Sara for drinks and some Wii playing.

Today, we went to Charlottesville to meet Jim's family for lunch/watching the Daytona 500. (no way that was being missed by certain members of the family, lol) We got to go to Whole Foods, then hung out a Wild Wings all afternoon.

My weekend has consisted of books, J. Crew, outdoors with beautiful weather, coffee, travel, great friends, family, Whole Foods, wings and some Blue Moon. Seriously, this has been a great weekend, and completely unexpected...which is how I like it! :)


On a side note...I am watching I AM SAM on DVR...I adore this movie. I cry everytime I watch it, even though I can quote almost the whole thing. "These shoes...they light up. These would make great shoes for school." :D

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Why I Can't Stand Stupid People.

Some background: I am currently director of my company's Deaf and hard of hearing services program. I was recently moved into also being the supervisor of all the job coaches, and assisting in some of the operations and administration of the company. To be honest, I have no idea what my title is right now! While I am enjoying it, I am realizing that promotions=more stress, this mostly caused by other people's stupidity.

You would think that I was talking about those I superivise...but no. They are wonderful. I have very little problems with them (not to mention one is one of my best friends and one is my husband). The ignorance I speak of comes from people (one in particular today, who shall remain nameless) at the state department. Nevermind that they are required to have Master's degrees, get to sit in their office most days from 9-5 while we actually work with the clients in the field at all hours of the day, or that they get paid double our salary. I truly believe 1/2 of them (not all-there are a few who are WONDERFUL) could qualify for services.

Today, I had to call this certain person because they asked one of the job coaches to change documentation because they didn't want to pay for it. This thing they didn't want to pay for? A meeting that they had called. Apparently, they decided that when they thought the meeting was over, they would keep the job coach there discussing other things, taking up their time, and not pay them for it. When I confronted the person on this, they actually said "Well, I hinted at them a couple times that I wouldn't pay for them to be there." You hinted?! You called the meeting! Until you say "We're finished, you can go", they are on your clock.

This wouldn't have upset me, had I not had run-ins very similar to this before. Every time I have spoken with this person, they talk down to me, seem to think that they are God, and are completely, utterly unprofessional. I'm sorry, but if you are a professional adult, please act like one. And the fact that I am over 1/2 your age and having to tell you that is very sad indeed.

Not knowing exactly how our job works, this probably makes no sense to anyone reading this (except Katie, lol). I just had to vent about it somewhere. I have an extremely low tolerance for rude and arrogant people, and have a tendency to see them as a challenge. I somehow decide to take it upon myself to remind them that they are no more special than anyone else, and in fact, with the way they act, deserve less respect than most other people. One of these days, that could get me in trouble, but I am one for being blunt and not beating around the bush. You are no better than anyone else, and if you haven't figured that out yet, it's about time someone told you. Life's much happier when you see people eye to eye, not staring down at the top of their head.

Monday, February 2, 2009

The Big Apple

So...as a graduation present to Jim for completing his Master's degree, we took a little trip to NYC! It was an absolute blast, despite the FRIGID temps!! James and Katie went with us, and a good time was had by all! Here are some pics from our trip:
Crossing into New York via the Holland Tunnel.

At our WONDERFUL Italian restaurant before the show!





Me and the hubs in Times Square before seeing Phantom...which was amazing, btw!




The armor room...one of my favorite rooms at the Metropolitan Museum of Art.




A lovely pianoforte on display at the Met.




Katie and James in The Black Sheep...fun little Irish Pub we found around the corner.






View of the Chrysler Building from our street corner. GREAT location.






All in all, a fabulous trip! I'll put more pics on facebook...Jim got some great ones on his "nice" camera while we were at Central Park.






































Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Ice

We may not get a lot of snow, but we do get this:



So far the power's been out and back on about 5 times...the entire street behind us is dark though. Good times!


Wasting Time

What does "wasting time" constitute really? Because I am always in fear of wasting the precious time that I have. It's funny, because I pack so much into my life everyday that I don't know how I have any time left over to waste, yet I find I still find scraps of it to waste. Facebook, for example...I go online to "check my page" and 1/2 an hour later, am still there. I know that's OK on occasion, but I feel like that's something I do far too often.

Take my day yesterday, for example: Got up, gave the hubby some breakfast, cooked myself some breakfast, showered, got ready, left for an appt. around 8:30. That lasted till 11:30, then the chiropractor, then home for lunch. Then for about 2 1/2 hours I worked online, facebooked, (I love that that's a verb now) did a load of laundry, figured out details for our NYC trip (toll costs, gas costs, travel time, where to park, confirmed our Broadway tickets). I then left and went to work with a client in Lynchburg for a bit, then drove to FedEx in Salem, worked there till 7:30, drove home, watched 24 with some friends, went back out to drop some things off at a friend's house, then read till midnight.

When I list it all out like that, I think "Wow! I got a lot accomplished yesterday!" But when I'm in the midst of it all, I feel like I am doing absolutely nothing. I think it stems from the fact that I feel there is so much in life to see and do and experience, that I hate to miss it by doing the "mundane" things of everyday life. I want to explore, travel, meet new people, try new things...and laundry is definitely not a new thing! :) I even find myself thinking "I would love to volunteer for special olympics"...I work with the disabled community 8-10 hours/day, what am I thinking?! I guess I just want to be able to CHOOSE to do things, rather than HAVING to do them...don't we all.

I guess I need to learn how to find the beauty even in those little, everyday things that seem to have no impact on my life whatsoever. I know God has a purpose in everything, and I can find ways to live life abundantly no matter what it entails. This adult thing is rough sometimes...but I love it all the same.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Finally...

I did it! I made a blog. Scratch that off my to-do list. Now...we'll see what this leads me to write about...