Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Wasting Time

What does "wasting time" constitute really? Because I am always in fear of wasting the precious time that I have. It's funny, because I pack so much into my life everyday that I don't know how I have any time left over to waste, yet I find I still find scraps of it to waste. Facebook, for example...I go online to "check my page" and 1/2 an hour later, am still there. I know that's OK on occasion, but I feel like that's something I do far too often.

Take my day yesterday, for example: Got up, gave the hubby some breakfast, cooked myself some breakfast, showered, got ready, left for an appt. around 8:30. That lasted till 11:30, then the chiropractor, then home for lunch. Then for about 2 1/2 hours I worked online, facebooked, (I love that that's a verb now) did a load of laundry, figured out details for our NYC trip (toll costs, gas costs, travel time, where to park, confirmed our Broadway tickets). I then left and went to work with a client in Lynchburg for a bit, then drove to FedEx in Salem, worked there till 7:30, drove home, watched 24 with some friends, went back out to drop some things off at a friend's house, then read till midnight.

When I list it all out like that, I think "Wow! I got a lot accomplished yesterday!" But when I'm in the midst of it all, I feel like I am doing absolutely nothing. I think it stems from the fact that I feel there is so much in life to see and do and experience, that I hate to miss it by doing the "mundane" things of everyday life. I want to explore, travel, meet new people, try new things...and laundry is definitely not a new thing! :) I even find myself thinking "I would love to volunteer for special olympics"...I work with the disabled community 8-10 hours/day, what am I thinking?! I guess I just want to be able to CHOOSE to do things, rather than HAVING to do them...don't we all.

I guess I need to learn how to find the beauty even in those little, everyday things that seem to have no impact on my life whatsoever. I know God has a purpose in everything, and I can find ways to live life abundantly no matter what it entails. This adult thing is rough sometimes...but I love it all the same.

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